So as I've started to reinvent myself and as I'm learning more about who I am and what I love and what things make me happy, I decided to make a bucket list.
I wrote this down back in October/November, and have been steadily working at knocking things off it one at a time. I'm not doing too terribly bad at scratching things off either. And what's better still is that it's really giving me a way of focusing on the good stuff, and doing the kinds of things that keep the monsters of anxiety and depression at bay, in a really healthy way.
See what I mean. I had jotted down that I wanted to write a book...Well, I had written a book, it just hasn't been picked up by a publisher or an agent and I'm ok with that. One day I may update the list to add an item - get the damn thing published, but until then, I have written one, I've self published it, and I even sold a few copies of Life Size Bride.
I've been paid to write since I made the list. Again, it wasn't much, but being able to scratch it off the list, validated the work that I had done, and reinforced my success. What a huge thing that has been for keeping the demons in check.
I managed to take my family on a road trip where we got to experience a few of our diners, drive ins and dives and Man v. Food favourites, AND we were able to discover a few hotspots on our own! Talk about fun. The hubby and I even took a cooking class where I got to cook along side a chef, AND we had a professional chef come and teach us a lesson in our own home - he cooked for us, and we had a very cool and romantic dinner for two in our own kitchen!
So I'm going to tell you that this has been a really big aid in my coping strategy the last year. I said in a post a couple days ago that work stinks still, and it will continue to stink for a good long while. I'm not doing what feeds my soul, but it pays my bills, and that means I have to make peace with it somehow. Turning business trips into opportunities to scratch something off my bucket list is a fantastic way to start. The more fun I have and the more opportunities I have to fill the needs here, the more likely I am to be able to maintain a sense of perspective, a sense of calm, and the better able I am to prove the negative thoughts are way wrong.