There it is. It's out there. I've said it. I also wouldn't mind being Oprah Winfrey, but let's not get ahead of ourselves.
I've already credited Eckhart Tolle's book The Power of Now: A New Earth with helping me yank my own butt out of the drain that was my own battle with depression and anxiety disorder. I don't change my read of the situation at all, but when I say I want to be Eckhart Tolle, here's what I mean.
I think Eckhart is a bright mind. A philosopher worth listening to with valid emotional insight, an educational background that allows him the opportunity to infer logic, use metaphor, and a voice and accent that allow him to reach the corners of your brain. That's a multi million dollar ticket right there. His real qualifications for all this insight is a come to Jesus he had while he was contemplating taking his own life. So for what it's worth, this is a guy who has been there done that, and in my world, that's the kind of street cred that counts.
What I like most about him is that he's overcome a humble beginning and ensured himself a higher education...that is of course if it's all true. You know you can't always believe everything you read on the internet. For now, until I'm proven differently, I'm making an assumption it's pretty darn close.
So the way I figure it, I have an education too. It's a pretty good one, though it's not Oxford. But hey, we don't all get a chance to roll like that right? And I've seen the bowls of depression too and avoided the pit, and I figure that success can't all be his...It's mine, I claim victory over my own depression and anxiety almost every day, so that's something. As should everyone who survives it and thrives in spite of it. And gosh darnit, I'm pretty damn insightful too when given the chance. The only thing I can't copy is his accent and his transcendental aura - you know, unless I dig into a bag of seriously awesome weed. But if that would make the difference between slogging away at my desk job, and raking in millions (even thousands - I'm really not greedy) by selling books that get sold by Oprah, and posting video interviews for $100 subscriptions so I can share my insights with the world at large, hells yes, sign me up. I'll smoke just about anything you ask me to if you could make me that guarantee.
What it all really does boil down to though, is even despite not making millions selling my books, or being able to share my philosophy while maintaining a perfect tree pose, I do continue to plunk away at my keyboard, sharing my inner most thoughts with a great void in the hopes that someone out there, anyone, finds some level of comfort in what they read or stumble upon in these logs. Rest assured too that while I'm typing away, I'm making an effort (albeit clumsy) to get from child pose to a passable downward dog while not fainting from all that blood that's rushed to my head.
Love to you all - and please comment freely. I'd love to hear what different things you'd like to see here!